Sunday, August 16, 2009

All Of A Sudden...

...... I feel I need to end it, not for whatever reason but because I know its the right thing to do. Initially, before everything had started I had the clear understanding of what it should be, "we" had the common point as to where our lines should cross and our bounderies should mend. It has been goin' on for almost a year now, Im free but technically not single. He, on the other hand is single with a girlfriend. None amongst our peers knew what we have as we made a pact not to put a face on it. He works in the next building where I am and so his girlfriend too. He is genuinely nice I must say, a typical guy who admire, who dream, who explore, who love and I guess a typical guy who like amongst us not contented. And maybe that is why we made a click. We've known each other through a common friend and later had an understanding which was meeting the horizon of what I do not have and what he might have been abundant upon that mislead him to have been lack of it. I admire his being honest and open, I always caught myself off guarded with his questions ( I dont know if he noticed it ). I like his ways of protecting what "we have". I understood that it should be. Sometimes my reason will empower me and will tell me that nothing is wrong with what Im doing but more often that not I know in me it has.

Not until yesterday that we saw each other after two months, that we had a great talk of almost anything and everything under the sun. I was able to listen to him sharing about his past, his failures and successes and his dreams, I hear him saying about how bitter he was before with life and so on... Then we came to the point of him asking me what was my life like, what happened and if I was married, that caught me off guarded again.. Im never open about my private life, only choosen few knew it all and to be honest I dont want him to know. Because I can see no importance of him knowing it and what "we" have does not concern each other to begin with.

Then I realize one thing, I cant be like this forever. I cant be with him all the time and so is he to me. "We" cant hide it from people and I cant afford to loose face infront of them. Because I know first of all that it is wrong. He is too nice that I will be sad if something will go wrong with him and his girlfriend ( which I know is going on before I came in the scene) which I also guess was aggreviated because of my presence.

I just heard mass tonight before I connect all these thoughts and emotions and the priests said " intellectual ability or intelligence is defying yourself to what is right and doing it and what is wrong and staying away from it ; he also mentioned that sin in any level and God does not go together and whatever justifications we have will never make things right in the eyes of God".....and this made me realize that I may not know what lies ahead of me but my faith should lead me to where I should be and to whom should I belong...

And you know the bottom of this all? Its because Im falling.... somewhere in between.

One great line I learn all this time about love and life.... we can never be happy at the expense of other people and I know its true.

I dont hope for ours to last nor wish for theirs to end. I just pray that this will make us better individuals and this goodbye will endure the present.

Friday, July 17, 2009

These Ought to be His Rule!

This one was shared by a male collegue and over dinner was able to have a healthy debate as these were generally true or merely fussyness of men.. lol.

Well, read down below and tell me what you think.. Here it is

Their confessions....

At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down Finally , the guys' side of the story.
(I must admit, it's pretty good.)
We always hear "the rules"
From the female side.
Now here are the rules from the male side.
These are our rules!
Please note.. these are all numbered "1"

1. Men ARE not mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.
We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon
or the changing of the tides.
Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport.
And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly Acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only If you want help solving it. That's what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem See a doctor.

1. Anyth ing we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria 's Secret girls, don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.
Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

1. You can either ask us to do something
Or tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not! A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will Be scratched.
We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear Is fine... Really .

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation,
or golf.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.
1. I know men had a big laugh because this is what we really are and I know women had bigger laugh because they thought this is just a joke!

Sunday, July 5, 2009

The Wooden Bowl

You will surely love this story as much as I do...
The Wooden Bowl.
I guarantee you will remember the tale of the Wooden Bowl tomorrow, a week from now, a month from now, a year from now. Here is the story....A frail old man went to live with his son, daughter-in-law, and four-year-old grandson. The old man's hands trembled, his eyesight was blurred, and his step faltered The family ate together at the table. But the elderly grandfather's shaky hands and failing sight made eating difficult. Peas rolled off his spoon onto the floor. When he grasped the glass, milk spilled on the tablecloth. The son and daughter-in-law became irritated with the mess. 'We must do something about father,' said the son. 'I've had enough of his spilled milk, noisy eating, and food on the floor.' So the husband and wife set a small table in the corner. There, Grandfather ate alone while the rest of the family enjoyed dinner. Since Grandfather had broken a dish or two, his food was served in a wooden bowl. When the family glanced in Grandfather's direction, sometimes he had a tear in his eye as he sat alone. Still, the only words the couple had for him were sharp admonitions when he dropped a fork or spilled food. The four-year-old watched it all in silence. One evening before supper, the father noticed his son playing with wood scraps on the floor. He asked the child sweetly, 'What are you making?' Just as sweetly, the boy responded, 'Oh, I am making a little bowl for you and Mama to eat your food in when I grow up. ' The four-year-old smiled and went back to work. The words so struck the parents so that they were speechless. Then tears started to stream down their cheeks. Though no word was spoken, both knew what must be done. That evening the husband took Grandfather's hand and gently led him back to the family table. For the remainder of his days he ate every meal with the family. And for some reason, neither husband nor wife seemed to care any longer when a fork was dropped, milk spilled, or the tablecloth soiled.
On a positive note, I've learned that, no matter what happens, how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.
I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles four things: a rainy day, the elderly, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.
I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as making a 'life..'
I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.
I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands.You need to be able to throw something back sometimes.
I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you But, if you focus on your family, your friends, the needs of others, your work and doing the very best you can, happiness will find you I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.
I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.
I've learned that every day, you should reach out and touch someone. People love that human touch -- holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back and lastly.....
I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.

Friday, June 26, 2009

.... hahaha! you are soooo funny my nff... youre always a validation that i am a woman and that i am human! sorry if u havent heard from me for quiet a while, never get the chance to call or text you since our time is crazy different and i dont want to text w/ no replies?! hahaha
everything is fine over here. i might have few assignments somewhere else for a couple of months and i hope i can drop by cdo again before the year ends. geeese! i will be bringing all my school and paperworks with me! da da da!
oh well, i hope to catch you soon. i have read your blogs so i responded here too. i know your checking ur sites and blogs everyday so i know u'll gonna read me after this... i'll let u know for other concerns i might have about it, but it's doin' pretty well and i guess its all ok now.
ciao my nff! wish to see you back when i get back.... mwah!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Thoughts To Consider As You Raise Up A Child

Remember that a child is a gift from God, the richest of all blessings. Do not attempt to mold him in the image of yourself, your father, your brother or neighbour. Each child is an individual and should be permitted to be himself.
Don't crush a child's spirit when he fails. Never compare him with others who have outshone him.
Remember that anger and hostility are natural emotions. Help your child to find socially acceptable outlets for these normal feelings or they may turn inward and erupt in the form of physical or mental illness.
Discipline your child with firmness and reason. Don't let your anger throw you off balance. If he knows you are fair you will not lose his respect or love. Always make sure the punishment fits the crime. Even the youngest child has a keen sense of justice.
Remember that each child needs two parents. Present a united front. Never join with your child against your mate. This can create in your child emotional conflicts. It can also create feelings of guilt, confusion and insecurity.
Do not hand your child everything his little heart desires. Permit him to know the trill of earning and the joy of achieving. Grant him the greatest of all satisfactions - the pleasure that comes with personal accomplishment.
Do not set yourself up as the epitome of perfection. This is a difficult role to play 24 hours a day. You will find it easier to communicate with your child if you let him know that mom and dad err, too.
Don't make threats in anger, or impossible promises when you are in a generous mood. Threaten or promise only that which you can live up to. To a child, a parent's word means everything. The child who has lost faith in his parents has difficulty believing in anything.
Do not smother your child with superficial manifestation of "love". The purest and healthiest love expresses itself in day-in, day-out training which breeds self confidence and independence.
Teach your child there is dignity in hard work, whether it is performed with callused hands that shovel coal or skilled fingers that manipulate surgical instruments. Let him know a useful life is a blessed one and a life of ease and pleasure-seeking is empty and meaningless.
Do not try to protect your child against every small blow and disappointment. Adversity strengthens character and makes us compassionate. Trouble is the great equalizer. Let him learn it.
Teach your child to love the Creator and to love all his fellow man. Don't send your child to a place of worship - take him there. Children learn from example. Telling him something is not teaching him. If you give your child a deep and abiding faith in God, it can be his strength and his light when all else fails.
If you are a single parent, surround yourself by loving and supportive friends, role models for your child. It takes a whole community to raise a child.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

I Apologize...

.... for the inconvenience but Im freakin' busy these past few days or make it weeks. Going back to school and working at the same time with a little cup of tea isnt always easy. But it was fun and worth doing. I still yet to post some updates I have soon but for the mean time I would like to say sorry to my friends whom I had never get the chance to bond with when I was there. Im sure you all understood. Kangkie is doing fine right now. And everything is doing wonderfully great!
Gotta go! my day is YTB! Have a Blessed day ahead everyone!

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Life and Love

Three passions have governed my life: The longings for love, the search for knowledge, And unbearable pity for the suffering of (humankind).

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness. In the union of love I have seen In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.
With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of [people]. I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens, But always pity brought me back to earth; Cries of pain reverberated in my heart Of children in famine, of victims tortured And of old people left helpless. I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot, And I too suffer.
This has been my life; I found it worth living. ( adapted)