Life and Love

Bertrand Russell:

Three passions have governed my life: The longings for love, the search for knowledge, And unbearable pity for the suffering of (humankind).

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness. In the union of love I have seen In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.
With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of [people]. I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens, But always pity brought me back to earth; Cries of pain reverberated in my heart Of children in famine, of victims tortured And of old people left helpless. I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot, And I too suffer.
This has been my life; I found it worth living. ( adapted)

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I know you're checking on me.... so read and understand!

How funny of you becoming freak and paranoid about something that do not exists. I shall inform you just in case you do not know or maybe you know but you cant do something about it. The real horror is right infront of you, close to where you are located and near enough to snitch your breathing apparatus. Remember when I told you I'll get back at you because Im not done yet? Huh?! I guess I have already forgotten 'em but since your starting all over again and trying to put up a fight?! Then Im sorry because I will not step down to your level, I dont fight with loosers and soon to be loosers. And oh! my mom told me too never to fight with ugly people as these ugly people dont have anything to loose.

Dont whine on me on your misfortune and on what your ordeal is right now. What you have right now is the price you have to pay for the things you have done before. And you should be thinking straight, straight enough not to blame others about all of this but yourself! And please, stop sending me sms and private msgs online, its not me who needs them its you.

Freak!

Missing Home

There is no better word to describe what Im feeling right now but the word " miss"! Sigh! Its not very long when I went back home but I just cant help feeling the loneliness inside and the truns of my nerves to visit CdO again. Its crazy because Ive never been like this. I dont know, maybe its up for something else.

I guess I have to file another SIL again and fly back home. Geese! The whole thing is driving me nuts! Darn!

Well, see you Gold City! I hope everything is ok when I get there.

x0x0

The Gift

The reason for my being....

AN ADVICE FROM OPRAH

Just wanna share this.... Something to pull ourselves through when we might be needing one..

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is YOU.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behaviour. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house.
Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Thank YOU

Happy regardless, is what and where I am right now. Thankfully I have this from within, though at times things are not happening the way I want them.. Well guess what?! it turned out to be what is more than Im wanting! I always believe that things happens for a reason and purpose. It may be very hurtful, upsetting and discouraging but at the end of the day it all boils down as to what have you done, how much effort you have exerted and how much Faith you've had with all the circumcetances of life we've been facing. As I always reminded, whatever we have right now is the sum of the things we did and that if you want to receive goodness, you have to be good yourself.

Yes, we are human and part of it are unfairness, lies, insecurities, failures, success and etc., and because of this, we may not get what is due to us or give what is due to others. But it doesnt end there, because if we humans wasnt able to recognize what is due to ourselves then there is always what we called Divine Intervention and everything will not gone to waste.

I may not have tried and tasted all kinds of pain and happiness other people does. But I sure know what are these, and was proud enough that I was able to pull it through and be happy regardless.

Thank you!

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